Reflection

Lord, I’m So Tired! – by Doug Brauner

May 29, 2015

Photo: Copyright Phil Romans, Tired Puppy https://creativecommons.org/licenses/by-nc-nd/2.0/ Flickr https://goo.gl/Hpjbvb

It is hard for me to sit at the keyboard to type out this blog because I’m tired. I’ve been wrestling with getting the PWTE website up and running. There were more obstacles than I had expected even though I had been warned.

There were various roadblocks to starting a website that I hadn’t counted on, more than simply figuring out WordPress. I didn’t realize that I needed to find a host for the website, then a template. I watched videos that helped me understand how to set up my website.

Once I had picked and purchased a template then I had to wait for WordPress to do what they do (whatever that is). That took more than three days before I was informed that I could start building the website.

Editing the website was another adventure. I knew how I wanted the sight to appear but getting it to look that way took a great deal of trial and error…mostly error.

At the same time that I’m working on the website I was busy working on a couple of podcasts that would be submitted to iTunes. Apple doesn’t make anything easy (contrary to all you Apple addicts out there). The simple component was recording the podcasts, the difficulty was getting it connected to the website through the PowerPress plugin and then working through Apple’s requirements. Finally, after a couple of weeks of work, IT IS FINISHED!

If the only thing I needed to accomplish during this time was start the website and record a couple of blogs, life would have been easy, yet there was more going on during this period of time.

I’m not alone in my tiredness. Many of you are exhaused as well. My last couple of weeks might seem like a cake walk for many of you, and it probably is.

We live in a tired culture.

If you’re reading this blog expecting some magic pill, I’m sorry to disappoint you. I’m writing this in midst of my tiredness and I’m not sure when things are going to get better.

Life continues to happen. If it weren’t the website it would be something else draining me of energy. Isn’t that the way it goes? We believe that if we get rid of that “something” that’s depleting us of life everything would be okay, only to find that another “something” takes it’s place.

When Jesus’ disciples returned exhausted from their mission trip, he invited them to join him in a mini “vacation” for some R&R (Mark 6:30-31), however they were not able to rest as a large crowd hounded them, a crowd that Jesus feeds with a mere five loaves of bread and two fish.

At the end of this exhausting day, Jesus retreats to spend time talking with his Father. It is in prayer that he finds his rest. It is in communion with his Father that he is rejuvenated, so much so that he walks on water in the midst of storm.

Right now prayer feels like one more thing on my to do list, and things on my to do list are usually not fun, that’s why they’re on the list to begin with. I put off those things that I don’t want to do.

Yet I can’t get away from the feeling that even though I’m tired, it’s time to talk with my heavenly Father…but will I be able to walk on water? Hummmmmm?

Copyright 2015 Douglas P. Brauner

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  • Ashley Foxworthy May 29, 2015 at 4:49 am

    Hmmm fitting. I guess today I learned that He will give you rest. Being such an insomniac I’m thankful for a day of extreme drowsiness.

  • Aaron Tisdale May 29, 2015 at 5:29 am

    Walk on water??? I don’t know, move mountains… maybe, in either case priorities matter. Dave Ramsey talks about putting our tithe first in our budget and everything else after. I think the same is true in terms of our relationship with God specifically in our prayer life. It’s hard to find the time to do anything but I think when we front load our Faith life our stressors and exhaustion seems that much more worthwhile.

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